Speechless

Have you ever been so overwhelmed by life's confusion and so engulfed in pain that you honestly just can't begin to even pray about it?  You're numb.  Your thoughts won't come together.  You can't find the words to start pouring your heart out.  You're drowning.  You want to reach out.  You want to find a firm place to stand...a footing of any sort.  But you don't even know where to start.  You can't tell up from down.  You're lost.  Alone.  Broken.  Afraid.  Speechless. 

In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express.  And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will.

Wow.  What an awesome promise!  Our Father knows our heart's cry even when we can't begin to formulate our thoughts ourselves.  He hears our inner sighs...those heart-wrenching groans.  The Holy Spirit steps in as an advocate on our behalf.  There have been times when it's all I can do to call out to God...my Abba...my Daddy.  And that is enough.

It's amazing though.  As I've sat there in fractured speechless silence, His peace overwhelms.  As I cry out His name, His love surrounds.  As I've crawled up in my Daddy's lap and just wept, He understands my heartache and fear.  Even when I don't think I have the strength to take one more step, I have a great God who is faithfully carrying me through it all. 

My God is so good!